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Monday, June 20th, 2016
9:37 pm
Time

I think the one resource.i.lack the most is time.
It flies.  It's here it's gone.  It's annoyingly never enough.
Maybe i just suck at time.management.

Friday, May 27th, 2016
10:37 pm
Death

Yep looks like i will be working until im dead.  An endless whole im digging trying yo get out of to no avail.  Thanks life...

Tuesday, May 24th, 2016
10:04 pm
Too early to bed

Well i was laying in bed until my stomach reminded me i had just eaten with burny throat acid.  Yay for laying down too soon.

Thursday, December 25th, 2014
11:38 am
Bills Bills and more bills
Birrus i believe is the name of the new Dragon Ball Z villain or villain-ish type guy. But i guess that's not important. Anyways, Bills suck. They're a never ending cycle of of money eating. It's very annoying. It's even more annoying when you should have help paying bills but you don't. As i've said so many times before people don't change and they pull the same shenanigans year after year after decade. Same old bull shit over and over. Bills are due, oh you don't have the money again this pay cycle. But wait you bought that thing that you really didnt need. Oh but when it's something that is used regularly you don't have the money for it. Oh okay i see. You're full of shit, yeah i understand completely. But i guess we get ourselves into these messes huh. Here to being a dumbass.
Thursday, December 4th, 2014
2:25 pm
People carry who they are on their persons. If some one acts active that's probably who they are and what they do. If some on slouchy and fat, that's probably who they are. Don't try to read between the lines and guestimates people's personalities. It's pretty much spelled out for you right there. Fat people don't like to do much but sit around and be lazy and get fatter. They try to put lipstick on the pig every now and again to fix things up, but it's still a pig. Speaking of which i need to lose about ten pounds myself. This will be a solo deal as no one around here has any real interest in not being slovenly and those who are, are light years ahead of me at the game. So i'll walk down this road alone. Which is what i think my life should be, alone. Not totally, but for the most part. I'm pretty sure that's how it was meant to be.
Friday, July 4th, 2014
8:08 pm

Sighs...
On the way out the door and suddenly miss,"I don't wanna go." Wants to go, imagine that. More of the same bs.

Sunday, June 8th, 2014
10:20 pm
Dependent

I must say I'm amused at how people who are dependent on others think they are owed something. Nobody owes you anything. And your lack of respect for others and their property doesn't help your pathetic case.

Sunday, March 9th, 2014
4:23 am
Peace (and quiet) no Peace (and quiet)

Why's there always people who don't live here in my rental house. Seriously...
Peace and quiet some times. I can't get a break before work at 4:00. Wtf.

Tuesday, December 17th, 2013
6:44 am
time
A simple day off work.
It makes me feel overwhelmed. Like i have no time t do anything.
I feel trapped. Caught in an endless cycle of...not getting things done.
It really sucks. I should cut back on some things to make more time.
Me and Candi talked a little bit the other evening and she was telling me
about how she had so much time to do so much by cutting out internet time.
That sounds like a good idea to me. Let's try to restructure some things and see how it works out.
Saturday, November 23rd, 2013
3:47 am

It would be nice to have some one in my life who got me gifts, instead of fussing about the gifts I get myself.

Thursday, June 13th, 2013
9:14 pm
Sleeping

So I can't turn my iPod sideways anymore so I can type with two thumbs. Wtf live journal.
Anyways.


I'll just type in notepad and copy paste it then. How about that.
So I'm going to bed or rather I'm in the bed but not trying to go to sleep and it makes me wonder why. I know I have work early in the am. And I know I stayed up too late last night and need the extra sleep but for whatever reason I don't want to go to sleep. I dunno. When I go over my
Old ladies house I can call asleep like nothing. But here home in the safety of my own room I don't want to sleep. I wonder why.

Friday, June 7th, 2013
9:41 am
saying good byes
Life, it's so full of things. Mostly people and change. The two go hand in hand.
People of this world. They are like leeches. They use you for what they can get with no concerns of your needs.
Your resources. It's an every day thing. Nations use other nations. Now instead of marrying off family members to form treaties and pacts we loan or borrow money. Same game new players.
The people who stick their grubby little hands out. "MORE...MORE!!!" They shout with total disregard for whether or not you have it to give. They suck you dry and then when u have no more to give, there is now a problem. We spoil our loved ones with things we shouldn't so freely give. Then when it's no longer there to give them, they are not happy. Like a child who's been told no. A fit ensues.
I don't bother people with my problems. My life is pretty stream lined. I made it that way to do away with the hassles. If i have a problem i do my best to solve it. I try to pinpoint it and correct that behavior. Make it get in line. But even I am not completely immune to life.
In the past couple of years i've been able to help so many people in so many ways. God has blessed me with a job that allows me to help others in financial need. I thank him for this. But I still have my bills to pay, i still have things i want to do in life. Ive run myself in the ground helping others and when the moneys not there, there's an attitude. I suppose it's just like everything else. Like the bum who wants money for food, but not for you to buy them food.

My time is limited, my body is tired but yet people still want me to give.
I've driven home so many nights falling asleep. Only God got me home safe. If i had been a cop i would have arrested myself.
But still more, more time, more effort.
When does it stop.
When do people look through the eyes of others and realize there are limits.
Your selfish personal greeds need to be checked. People's resources whether material, physical, or otherwise are not infinite.
You have a need so does the other person.
Just take the time to be considerate of others and their resources before you decide your needs are more important than theirs.
And if you're given advice as to help your situation please take it and try it.
we all think we're right in life, but we're not. different paths for different steps.

Current Mood: sad
Monday, May 6th, 2013
10:03 pm
creativity
My creative drawing well has been low for quite some time. I barely even remember the dreams i have now a days. And dreams used to be the staple of my creative well. But its all good. I realised that i need a mixture of inputs to get good ideas. i had been listening to the same musics, since i dont watch alot of tv anymore. but mostly soundtrack music. Well soundtracks are nice and all but evidently overall they just don't get the job done. Sp Rap music, oddly enough. Not all of it, but some of it leads to creativity. Or rather i should say a mixture of rap and soundtracks promote creativity, for me anyways. And thats a lesson learned and thats fine with me.
Sunday, February 3rd, 2013
8:55 am
Fun dream

So I actually had a dream that i remember and that was fun. It had me, Mike, Andy Buchanan, this guy from work Big Earl who weighs 500+ pounds, and sum random made up brain people and Hicks and Hudson from Aliens. Me, Hicks, and Hudson were government investigators trying to find out a out some mysterious killings. vampires were thought to be the cause. So the thing takes place at the motel type resort that was kinda like a high school gym swimming pool house thing. I dunno it was wierd to be honest. There was a pool though and we stayed in rooms and the people I knew from real life were there. So the plot...Hudson was hitting on chicks n being silly while me and Hi is did most of the investigating. I was kinda under cover trying to blend in. So after a couple of days people started catching cold like symptoms. Andy, and two other people at the resort and sum chick that Hudson had picked up. Times passed the we didn't find too much evidence of what was goin on but Mike got sick and Andy did also. The chick from earlier disappeared completely. So one evening me and Hicks were discussing the sick people and the disappearing people and how we were gonna head out in the morning because we hasn't found anything. Meanwhile Hicks found sum chicks who were constantly jogging and exercising and he decided he was gonna spend the last night with them.
The next morning. I was awoken to Hicks busting in the room yelling about the girls and doing his whole "GAME OVER MAN," thing. So me and Hicks went out side the room. There were sick people every where and people
Who had these circle shaped bruises on them. Like something had burned the skin off them but there wasn't a burn mark the skin was just gone. So basically everybody was sick except Hudson, Hicks, Earl, Me, and sum random guy. I asked Mike how he was doing because we had to leave now. He said he had a head ache and felt really hungry. And felt like he needed blood and immediately ran over and grabbed this random chick. I ran down stairs where Earl was and told him get outside immediately and not let anybody out of the door. I ran back upstairs where Hicks was fighting a couple of the other Hotel goers and Hudson was trying to talk those chicks out of attacking him. Mean while every body else at the hotel was either sick or having the blood sucked out of them. The sickness was some wierd vampire like disease that caused the person to desire blood. They absorbed the blood through their hands. So while going to help Hudson I was attacked from behind by Andy. I tried to talk him out of attacking me but evidently he was smitten with the idea of being a vampire. So I did this fancy military flip on him and tried to run but he attacked me again. So I was like, "Andy you can't beat me".
He replied, "I'm not a human anymore Tor and have powers now."
By now I had been surrounded by these vampire things. So I rolled up my sleeves and said, "your powers don't matter."
And started changing into a werewolf.

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Sunday, January 6th, 2013
6:51 pm

So the excuse, "I'm tired," is not valid from some one who works 5 day weeks when they expect me to go on like I'm not tired when I work 4 weeks with no days off.

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Saturday, December 22nd, 2012
12:49 pm

The double standards they Neva end. Well tho I had hoped that today would be sum time out of town eating sum different food. But nope the girlfriend stayed out late partying and was sleepy or whateva. Funny, if I go out I'm sill obligated to abide by the plans we had. Same ole bull shit. I'm dead set on not going anywhere. Yah it's me being obstinate and annoyed.

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Sunday, December 9th, 2012
2:39 pm

Sum people are an unending stream of bitching

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Friday, November 16th, 2012
10:41 am

Sitting here eating breakfast on my day off. It would be nice if I could have a peaceful quiet day but no. Get up in the morning first off... Oh my gosh the radio is blasting and dad won't shut up...anyways. My girlfriend wants a laptop bc her current one is bein hogged by her job. So I'm like "well I had planned to get u a ring n sum stuff for Christmas but since u need a laptop I could get u that but that'll be the only thing u get. The initial plan was to do a seven gift Hannukah thing like last year. But pc's cost into the 500 and up range and she wants something that she can do low end gaming on. So I'm like that'll be it then. Which is evidently a problem now this morning but not last night. Because me getting a laptop for her is taking the non committal way out bc it's not a ring...wtf. If I got the ring it's cus u wanted a ring, oh and evidently promise rings r stuff kids do when they're 12. What kid buys a ring for another kid what kid can afford that. So I'm like, u smoke n I'm not getting engaged to a smoker. Of my five pillars I want a woman to have she has one. We share the same religious beliefs. She doesn't have any plans for college, she smokes, has bad decision making tendencies, and us is with money.
So eventually this ring could be a engagement ring by not right now. So she says I'm afraid of commitment when the truth is I'm not feeling like committing to something I disagree with. But evidently me not being committing is us being sinful. Yah I coulda told u premarital sex goes against our religious beliefs. But when we go places n I get a hotel room with two beds she complains. If I'm like we shouldn't have sex that's a problem. Bc like all people we're wishy washy. So whatever. Just more of the same bs.

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Wednesday, October 17th, 2012
9:51 pm

Karma never ceases to amaze me.

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Saturday, October 13th, 2012
9:18 pm

It's amazing how one person can totally screw things up. It amazes me how some people are not satisfied unless they can complain about somebody and how they are always a victim and can do as they please. They set rules that they themselves refuse to follow and are selfish all consuming viruses. I'm tired of the bullshit. I'm tired of the games and the childishness. It's all a bunch of shit. It's all a joke.

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